la lang, sad me ngayon sobra (lei orange ghala arra wag nyo po ko pagagalitan..) it's been two months already that my bf and i broke up, 2m0nths na rin alang usap.. (ex na pla tawag dun ngyon..) yet the pain still lingers on.i feel like something bore a hole in me..the way i feel right now is far more different from the pain that i went through with my first bf..sobra...worse yung ngayon..i can't cry pero ung nadadama ko gustung gusto na sumabog..others say it's his loss and that i should move on with my life WITHOUT him, but they just don't understand...i remember going to batangas to be with him, and that he would dance me para kaming eng- eng, slo- mo pa ung sayaw imagine..and he would introduce me sa mga kapatid nya and to his friends..i told myself before "sya na nga ciguro ung pinagdadasal ko every night.." but then, cguro its our differences that brought him to leave me. that's why i don't like going to batangas, kasi naaalala ko lang un..sabi ko nga kay God "lord, y do i have to go through these things again, sana po wag na ko malungkot kung masaya na rin lang sya..." am praying na sana makarecover na ko...madalas kase dumarating parin yung point na am asking myself na kung naging mas supportive ba ko, kung naging maganda ba ako, kung naging mature ako based sa standard nya..MAGHIHIWALAY KAYA KAMI?..and sana kung makakapagsalita lng ang heart ko, at kung nakakarinig lng puso nya, gusto ko sabihin "dad aantayin kita..at sori..." magpapasko na, gaya nga nung sinasabi ko kay ghala, namimiss ko na ung may nagaalaga sa kin, ung may nagmamahal..Sori peeps sad lang tlaga ko..
[ `take my hand* ]
at 9:55 PM
